So…that didn’t last.

Let me just be blunt.  Most of March and April sucked.  The starter went out on Buttercup – again – and I spent two week stressing out about it.  The first week was spent with our mechanic on vacation; the second waiting for the part to get ordered.  Then I spent two weeks unable to sleep in one of the worst insomnia cycles I’ve had in nearly a year. Continue reading

Crossroads – joy, sorrow, spirituality, and scooters

Here lately, I’ve felt like I was in flux.  I spend a lot of my time focusing on “one day” – not just in a daydream sort of way, but because it’s my responsibility to plan for one day in our family of two.  Though there is and likely always will be a small measure of daydreaming to that.  Dreaming of our perfect home – ridiculous amounts of land, a small homestead, pets and livestock.  And children.  And I’m stuck on children again right now because of the birth of my newest niece – my baby brother’s first child.  I can’t even begin to explain what it’s like knowing that precious little miracle has entered the world.  Nor can I put into words how much I’m looking forward to the first time I get to hold her, touch her precious face.  July!!  Can’t come soon enough.  Continue reading

Our family’s big news

So, as this has started off as one of the least appealing birthdays I’ve had in a while (had to have my Joshwa to work at 6:30 am and the best friend is working ALL day), I think now is the perfect time to tell you about a bright spot.  This past March, my brother married a lovely woman and acquired two step-sons.  The oldest is 16, so I’m not sure how their relationship is developing (what can I say, my brother lives more than 8 hours away, we don’t get to spend a lot of time together), but I can tell you without a doubt that my brother is as crazy about his younger stepson, and the feeling appears to be mutual. Continue reading

I’m sorry, dear readers

For a while, I was doing so well – giving my dear internet-crawlers something to fill their time.  But over the last months, I’ve dropped off to near nothing.  I do greatly apologize.  First there was my miscarriage, and then there was NaNoWriMo, so I’ve neglected my lovely blog and my lovelier readers for far too long.  I will do my best by remedying this fact now.  So I’ll start with an update. Continue reading

Happy Mother’s Day!

Happy Mother’s Day to all you wonderful women who are blessed to be called mothers and who bless your children and families!  It’s a beautiful thing you do and you have my gratitude and envy.  This time last year I thought “wow, I bet I’ll get to celebrate next year…won’t that be neat”, but this year brings a bit of sadness – because I’m not a mom and we’re a mother short this Mother’s Day.  It’s been three months since we lost Mammaw, so it’s definitely still hard.  Harder still?  I won’t be seeing my Momma, even though she is only a few hours away.  Well, lives a few hours away.  Cause she and Daddy are at Elks Convention this weekend.  Isn’t that a kick in the teeth?  Who schedules a convention on Mother’s Day weekend?  Crazy people, that’s who!  ^__^ Continue reading

*sniffles*

So, we didn’t get to go to my mother-in-law’s wedding.  WE couldn’t get our rental car (who’s ever heard of a $200 deposit for a freaking $45 rental?!) and before we could drive to Huntsville – because we drove circles around freaking downtown Birmingham….but we won’t talk about that – our truck overheated.  😦  Thankfully we were on our way to Alabaster (rather than halfway there) when it happened.  But that means we’re missing the wedding.  Granted, we had discussed not going because of the family drama that’s been going on. Continue reading

Happy birthday, boy I didn’t want…

Today, my baby brother celebrates his 19th birthday.  It makes me sniffle a little.  It’s hard to believe that when I was five, there was nothing that I wanted more than for my Mommy and Daddy to take him back and get me a puppy.  I was not pleased that they brought home this squirming, crying thing that replaced me as the baby. Continue reading