The Struggle

This year on Father’s Day, I didn’t contact my father.  My mother texted me to tell me to do so, and I ignored it.  Sir Joshimus and I were getting ready to go on vacation, so I simply shut off my cell phone.  Because the idea of calling my father and wishing him well made my stomach turn.  And the fact that my mother, whom I hadn’t talked to since MARCH texted me for that made it worse. Continue reading

5 Things I Learned Growing Up a Southern Liberal

I read and shared a post a few days ago on Reverb Press, 5 Things I Learned Growing Up Liberal in the Deep South.  It was a solid list of things that I’ve found to be true myself.  But I disagreed with the commentary – if not necessarily the message, then the delivery of it.  Maybe it’s the audience that the article is geared towards – northern liberals.  But I want to direct this at the southern conservatives who I know and love.  So, here’s my list with my own commentary. Continue reading

Sunshine in my soul – on blooming

I missed a pretty huge anniversary for myself last week.  One that I’m really proud of, actually.  Two years since the last time I smoked a cigarette.  Two years.  This is a huge milestone for me because this is the point, last time, where I completely failed and gave up pretending that I had quit.  I’ve done what I once feared I’d never be able to accomplish and I’m so proud of that.  I’m a bad ass. Continue reading

Pushing forward when life pushes you back

Over the last four years – though some would say as many as six – every time we’ve been on the verge of moving forward, we’ve been pushed back.  What was hopefully only going to be a couple of years has turned into five.  And now, that we are on the brink of leaving once more, it’s turned into six.  And for a few days, it was like a brick through a glass wall – I crumbled. Continue reading

Year in review

I know that it’s already well into Februrary, but I guess better late than never.  Our year ended much the way the year had progressed – a slow series of goals reached to move us to our ultimate goal.  The biggest of those was probably getting Buttercup paid for a full eight months (I think) early.  Not a huge deal, but huge for us.  There are still stumbling blocks in our way, but we’re handling them one step at a time.
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♪♫Musical Monday♫♪

“Fast Cars and Freedom” by Rascal Flatts

Today I was going to share mine and Sir Joshimus’s current obsession song, but as he was getting ready for work, he turned and looked at me and told me, “You don’t look a day over fast cars and freedom.”  So, through tears of love, I had to go listen to this song and decided to share it with y’all today.  I’ll go ahead and set up the other one for next week for you guys.

 

On Lir and midwinter

I’ve been spending a lot of time in my own head again recently.  In part it was my parents’ visit this weekend and the many things that are coming to a head as this year ends.  But it has also been the coming of winter – even though it ran away again – that has me thinking deep thoughts that I mostly keep to myself.  And as freezing temps washed over the hills in what is often the shape of winter here in central Alabama, I heard the soft calling of my mysterious God, Lir.  Continue reading