Yep, that’s right, folks, yesterday was my 26th birthday! Apparently I’m at the age where I’m supposed to deny and fight against getting older – and definitely not supposed to admit my age – but I figure when you grow up hearing about how your parents should have died before you were born because they did stupid stuff as kids, it makes you more appreciative of every year. For me, it’s like winning, lol. Each year is a gold star on my report card. I’m 26 – by the Gods, I’ve made it this far with no major mishaps. The only things I don’t like is that I’m another year older without a child. Of course, maybe I am with child. Don’t know yet. Yep, still no positive pregnancy test, still no period. Gah! And don’t even get me started on the pregnancy test I took yesterday morning…that was a DUD! Yeah, didn’t even show up the control line. I was so mad! But we won’t talk about that. ^__~
I did finally tell my Momma about what’s going on and, for the first time, she really seems supportive. It helps, since I’ve really been feeling like she didn’t think I deserved to be a mom. Not by anything she’s said directly, but because she hasn’t been more supportive. And let’s face it, if I didn’t need all the support I could get, why the hell would I be blogging, right? ^__^ But she seemed excited for me and told me not to stress about it. And to let her know as soon as I know anything. I’m trying to stay hopeful, and I’ve got two more tests waiting. I figure I’ll try again sometime next week….if I can hold out that long.
I am thinking about signing up with the “Life with Baby” program through Josh’s work (which I’m obviously going to do anyway once there is a child!) and setting up an appointment. I just found out about it yesterday – which is such a relief because the kind of health care offered through Wal-Mart sucks if you have to use it for maternity – so we’re still gathering information about it. I’m making Joshwa do that tonight at work. ^_^ Probably call them on Monday, since he’ll be working all day tomorrow and Sunday and I’m fairly sure he’ll have to call initially since he’s the employee. Either way, it makes me more excited about what I can expect from them when it comes to having kids. I might just tell Joshwa that he has to stay with Wal-Mart until we’re done having kids even if he hates it, lol.
So that pretty much concludes what’s going on for now. I had a good birthday – despite the dud and not getting a positive on the one I took last night or this morning. I’m feeling better about having kids with Wal-Mart covering us. And I still don’t feel like I’m going to start my period. I’m kinda feeling sick today, but I’m more worried about it being something I ate yesterday than getting my hopes up that it’s “morning sickness”. But I’m more hopeful now than ever before. And Joshwa’s store might be getting bonuses next pay check or the one after that! So keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
As always, brightest blessings to you all! I’ll take any blessings I can get. ^__^