Wow, the last few weeks have been awful. I mean, I live on a cycle of good sleep and bad/no sleep, but these last few weeks have been even worse. Even when I have gotten sleep, it hasn’t been more than about 4 or 5 hours a day/night. All this culminated in one of the worst stress headaches I’ve ever had. My neck was so tight that my head was hurting. It felt like someone had punched me in the face! I took two Excedrin Migraine (I normally only have to take one to help me fall asleep – the only way I can usually get rid of a severe headache) and struggled to fall asleep. Well, after about an hour or so, the pain woke me up! Joshwa tells me I was talking in my sleep about how much it hurt. So I ended up in the second bedroom in our recliner for some relief – though I didn’t manage to get any sleep before Joshwa woke up. I did eventually get some sleep, but it was after we found out that the leak in our truck’s radiator has stopped – at least for now – and we qualified for a bonus on our food stamps this month. Funny that this headache came and went so quickly – mainly that it left after we got such great news.
Now, I’m feeling better, things are better with our truck and with our food situation. And now we’re getting everything paid off! Gotta call tomorrow to get Shelby Baptist Hospital paid and then we’ll only have one more payment! Looking forward to getting them paid so that we can start a more aggressive payment schedule for our Wal-Mart credit card. They have ridiculously high interest rates, but it was a necessary evil at the time. *le sigh* I always promised myself that I wouldn’t let this happen if I ever got a credit card. But I didn’t foresee us finding ourselves in quite this situation. But we’ll get clear and we’ll recover. I have every faith that it will happen exactly as it should.
We’ve had people – especially in Joshwa’s family who question my faith – who ask if I see this as a sign that we’re doing something wrong or who ask if it makes me question my faith. Honestly, if anything, it has reaffirmed my faith. Because every time something has come up, something else has come to our aid. There are too many miracles in our every day life, too many times where things could go horribly pear-shaped, but instead things have worked out to our advantage. Every time I have a moment…or several…of doubt and stress, I feel wrapped in the love of the God and Goddess. The only thing that still makes me worry/doubt is getting pregnant. I’m trying not to stress, but we know how good I am at that – you know, not at all, lol. I’m doing better about it, though, thanks mainly to my Joshwa. Cause he’s the greatest guy in the world, as we all know! ^__^
So, I’m going to take a nap and wait on him to get home. Brightest blessings always!