Ugh. When I got my intrawebz back, I swore to myself – and promised you – that I would update everyday. That I would have new and cool things to talk about to keep you entertained. And yet, here it is, so short a time later, and I’ve missed several days. There are reasons, though I guess my insomnia would be more of a reason for me to get on here and post. I’m just afraid of what I might say! ^__^ I keep hoping that I will have something incredibly interesting to talk to you about, yet most of my time is spent trying to learn more about the options for when I get pregnant. It’s the closest thing to stop worrying if I’m actually pregnant. I feel like I’m obsessed, and I don’t want to be. Self-control becomes more and more important to me as I get older, and maybe that’s a problem – the fact that I put such emphasis on self-control that I actually think it’s possible.
There is so much I want to do, and lately it’s like I cannot focus on any one thing because there is so much in my mind. I want to study shamanism, not necessarily to become a shaman, but to determine if it is a path that I feel led to learn to become one. I wish to study herbs – healing with them and their magical uses – because I wish to be more self-sufficient. I want to study up on green building methods and green energy resources, because one day we will build a home that is, if not entirely, mostly self-sustaining. I want to meet others on spiritual path to hear of their spiritual practices so that I can learn more about them – because simply searching gives me too much information at once. I can soak it up, but I don’t gain from it the insight I seek. And though I enjoy knowledge for knowledge’s sake, I want more than that out of my studies.
So, for now, I’ll try more social networking (less facebook/myspace, more Witchvox/Wiccan Pagan Together). Dear readers, if you have any suggestions, please feel free to leave a comment or to email me. If you know someone who has similar interests and would be willing to share information with me, please either direct them here, or have them email me.
Now, I’ve got to find an online budget manager so I can stop writing it out by hand every time I need to make a change. I know I could use a spreadsheet, but those things have never been my forte and they give me a headache to try and set up. So wish me luck. Then I might take a nap, if Joshwa isn’t home from work yet. Maybe I’m being wishful to believe I’ll have found one and set it up before he gets here, lol. Either way, brightest blessings.